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So in the last post I told you about my amazing hormone levels! hcg levels are supposed to at least double in 48 hours, and my last check had almost quadrupled! Our first thought was relief to finally get some good numbers, then it was, "since my hormone levels went up so high, does that mean we have twins?", and then it was worry because I had been spotting again since before I even found out I was pregnant.
I felt like I was drowning in emotions, confusion, hope, fear, wonder, and trying to take it one day at a time.
One thing that I bet anyone who has lost a baby before, and then been pregnant again, would tell you is that paranoia sets in big time! Every cramp, kink, spot of blood, sends you calling your doctor for blood tests/ultrasounds. Even when things appear to be going fine, you still get paranoid and beg for medical reassurance, and if you have an understanding doctor, you get tests done!
February 21, 2006
I'm still so scared that I'll lose this baby so I asked to go in today for more hcg levels. It's only been 3 days since my last one but the hormone has continued to more than double! They went from 234 to 842 which is about tripling and a half, plus some, in the time it needed to take to double.
Do I dare get excited for this yet?
I feel pregnant this time around. This morning I felt a little queasy (not bad though), my boobs feel uncomfortable, and I have mood swings. Everyone is speculating twins since my hcg went so high, but I wont be so sure till we can count them on the ultrasound. So technically my due date is October 23rd but I'm expecting to measure at least 3 days later than that since I got my ovidrel shot on day 17 instead of the "normal" day 14.
We had our first ultrasound for this pregnancy when I was 5 weeks 5 days pregnant. I was scared to death, I think Spencer was mainly just ready to start counting embryos! I was trying to brace myself for the possibility of either seeing an empty uterus, or seeing something like 4 embryos! I knew there was a chance that taking that Ovidrel shot would cause my ovaries to release more than one egg, and those skyrocketing numbers made it seem even more possible. I always thought twins would be fun, triplets would be really really busy but I thought we could handle it, and quads or more would just make me pass out. I'd be done. 4 babies at once, 24/7? I'd be praying to grow some more arms and a stronger back!
That ultrasound was a glorious sight to behold!